I spoke to him for over 3 hours the other night. Cried about 4 times and tried to hide it. I did not want to hear him start crying either other wise I would have been inconsolable. Luckily I was able to hide my tearful sounds from him. He had no clue.
Just hearing his voice though made me feel like I was walking on clouds with happiness. He knows how to make me smile like a complete dork and laugh like a donkey from 3,815 kilometres away. I love him beyond explination.
Hearing him say how he misses waking up next to me and watching me sleep silently and watching me just as I’m waking up because I look so ‘cute’ and ‘innocent’ that it makes his ‘heart melt’….Yup I cried at that bit.
Hearing how he thinks its better if I moved to Darwin because I can save more money up there since it’s too hot that after work you just come home to the air con instead of going out and ‘think of all the shoes you could buy!’….Yup, I laughed at this bit.
I knew that as soon as I came home from spending almost 3 months with Hayden that it will be hard. The hardest times is when its bed time; not having him there beside me, cuddling me, is painful.
My fingers are crossed I can see him again in April.
Words honestly can not describe how painful it is to miss someone you love so dearly. Only those in LDR’s would understand.
Patience. Trust. Honesty. Communication. Love.
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